This might be a boring post for non-believers but hopefully even this post can convince some of you to start looking. I have been a Christian since I was born since it is the law here to actually have a religion. My dad was legally Buddhist and my mom is a Christian.
I went to a Christian school and even have a Christian class and even a Christian exam (!). Ended up remembering all the books of bible (10s to look for any verse) and all the stories inside. And yet — just like any teenagers I fell into a deep shithole of sins especially when my parents were divorced. What kind of shithole is for another post but the key thing here is that I wasn’t a devoted Christian at all.
And so, with no other direction but up — I ended up trying to “restart” my faith and actually going to the church with both curiosity and an open heart. I ended up receiving baptism, and like how everyone said it: the rest is history.
Few years after my baptism, I graduated from my uni, was pretty much in a “jaded” phase and or “rut” — I know i need to go somewhere and yet I was stuck. Somehow, God sent me a chance of a religious trip. My good friend and life mentor, Ronald Ishak – wasn’t able to go to his Hillsong Conference trip because he had to go to the United States.
All I had to pay was my accomodation and foods while there – an offer too good to resist — not long after going there, Talenta was born.
Fast forward again another few years, 2017, I honestly felt that we have built something that people want and need, and yet I’m stuck in terms of growth. At the same time, I felt like despite all the achievements — I’ve also have built a stack of sins. Somehow, God answered this again with Hillsong Conference trip. God sent another friend to sponsor and actually went together with me for this trip. (Thank you Ko Jeffrey Gunawan!)
And this are several things I learned this trip:
1) We have to wait and pray in expectation to God. It doesn’t mean that God must do what you want or what you tell Him, but when you ask, God will give it to you.
2) This is just the start, not the end. This particular words resonated with me really deeply because I was feeling tired and hitting this wall I couldn’t go through. I thought that the blessing is ending, yet God said — I just got started
3) Don’t just SEE, but LISTEN. Sometimes, all we can focus on is what we see (currently). All we can see is the battle that we are losing (in our daily life) but when you close your eyes, and listen – Holy Spirit is saying that you are winning the WAR!
4) God is raising Kings and Queens in this world. We are our own influencer in our community. We are destined to become something big — and no matter how “small” we thought we are – God want to use us.
5) Holy Spirit isn’t (always) something that you watch or you see externally. Holy Spirit should be something internally, and feeling extraordinary. The reason this is also part of the things I note is because recently churches started practicing “speaking in tongue” as if we can only have Holy Spirit if we do it. Meanwhile, God is reminding us it’s not about something exceptional that you should see but actually WE should be exceptional in our life.
6) Fastest way to kill something special is to compare. Comparison made you inferior or superior and neither are God. This is actually something that (again) resonated with me — especially in the era of social media where we just can’t seem to stop comparing ourselves to our friends or even a complete stranger.
7) Father in heaven waited for more than 20 years (CMIIW) to “announce” Jesus. Jesus doesn’t need an announcement — but what God wants to tell us is that you may be anointed but not announced, don’t wonder why you have to wait so long to be successful, to be blessed, to be rich, to be famous, to be smart. God has His own time.
I believe that God will (again) put something special into work for me and my life — and I can’t wait to share that with you. God bless you all